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I should just fall in love somewhere else

Imbalance

My emotional state has been tested these past days. Being single for 5 months made me realize that having a partner wasn’t what I needed. 

so, here I was. online as usual. until one day, this guy messaged me. It was normal, I talked to numerous guys online before and nothing of emotional instability came on me. so we talked through chat and it was okay. we decided to meet each other for the first time. I was in Dumaguete then and he was too. So we met at the hotel he was staying at. I waited like forever because he was still in that seminar he was to speak to. anyways, the time came and I received a text. It was from him, he asked if I was the one in the bonnet, I was wearing one that time so I said yes.he replied saying “nahihiya daw sya sakin.” I then received another message he was the one on my right. I looked to my right but all I saw was an empty door. The door opened and there he was. He was a tall moreno chubby guy with close to no hair but he was sexy. (well for me, maybe). He had the cutest nose. 

We talked and got to know each other a little. Everybody knows what happened after that. setting that aside and what happened between us, I got to really like him.

It’s that feeling that you want to experience but sorta don’t want to feel it. I want to “like” him since he’s the perfect specimen for me. he passed my checklist with beautiful flying colors. At the same time, I don’t want to feel this. I’m confused. I don’t know if he likes me back or if we will be good together. He is older than me by 7 years and he is at the peak of his career. He’s stable. unlike me, a student from the province trying to make his way here in Manila. unstable in every aspect imaginable. I’m 21 and “marami pa akong kakaining bigas.” 

It’s weird feeling like this, I’m worried. what if I get hurt again.

going back to the story. I saw him again a few days ago. I got back here in the metro and he got back a week before I did. so I saw him again. he was really sweet. The way he talks. Its orgasmic. It’s like nutella for my ears. I slept at his place. he wasn’t feeling really well though

I like him, who knows, maybe more than that. he’s not a texter so we don’t text that much. well at least that’s how he appears to me. I can’t figure him out. I don’t know if he feels something.

I’m writing too much here.

anyways.

I like him but I’m worried. I don’t know. I want to but I’m scared of hurt and pain. I’ve only seen him twice which shows a definite pattern. I should wait. we don’t know, I like him. but I should wait I guess. I don’t want to lose him.

so, here it goes.

as you can see, I am the proud owner of a boring blog. it has nothing in it, nothing interesting about it.

well, after months of owning this boring blog, I have now come to the conclusion to totally change its current status as a boring-good-for-nothing blog to a boring-all-about-me-and-my-gibberish blog.

I do hope you find this a tad bit amusing.

Nevertheless, I don’t care. cause it’s my blog.

Tooch my darlings.

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